Thursday, May 3, 2012

Explanations and Revelations

I've been obsessed with blogs for the past few months and have one of my own, but am weary to share it with people I know out of fear of judgement. Overall, I like that my blog is generally anonymous. However, there are times when it seems silly to allow complete strangers view my handiwork, but not my friends.

Revelation #1:
My friends and family are good people and they don't care if I love scrapbooking and cardmaking, take pictures of my creations and post them on the internet (the topic of my other blog). No matter how nerdy, it may be. They may tease me, but really and truly, THEY DON'T CARE.

The reason I'm weary of alerting everyone to my blog is mostly due to the teasing I would likely endure. It's just a little teasing, I say to myself, "what's the big deal?" Well, I am a serious person. After years of denial, I'm finally ready to admit this. In 10th grade math class, I was voted "most serious" by my classmates. I was downright offended. (I would say that's ironic, but I'm not sure that it really fits the definition). These informal awards were meant to be fun, the title of "most serious" did not sit well with me, and to be completely honest it still doesn't, but I'm working on it. So, I guess I just need to learn to take some things, like teasing, a little less seriously.

Revelation #2:
Being serious doesn't mean not allowing yourself to have fun, or tell jokes, or laugh. It's having a purpose, getting things done, being highly motivated. 

Revelation #3:
Shy people are at times perceived as unfriendly and serious. It's just the way things are. I'm often most comfortable listening to a conversation without contributing anything but eye contact and the occasional head nod, but I understand that saying nothing unfortunately projects the idea that I have no desire to contribute.

As I've gotten older the shyness thing has drastically improved, but when in groups of greater than 3-4 people, I still struggle. Life is a process. You live to improve each day. My improvement today is linking this blog so that my friends can read it, and tease me accordingly.

I wasn't really sure what this first post was going to look like; it's kind of taken a life of it's own...And I promise future posts will be more interesting. Thanks for sticking through to the end!


1 comment:

  1. Hey now, I like your cards! It makes me super jealous that I'm not that creative, but then I can steal your ideas. :)